I think about you constantly. You are never far from my thoughts. From the moment I wake up and all throughout my day, you are always on my mind. And when I am awake at night, all I can think about is how much I will need you tomorrow. I don’t want to go one day without you.
When the kids came along, I knew that our relationship would change. I knew that there would be days, weeks, years even where things could never be like they were in college when I first realized how badly I needed you. I knew that I would have to make my choice. And while I am so happy that I chose the kids, there are days when I just miss you. Your comfort. How refreshed and alive I feel after we have been together.
But our forbidden encounters couldn’t continue.
Yet, how I would give anything to slip away for just a few stolen moments together. There are days when the warm afternoon sunlight floods the living room and I see the couch and remember our good times. Maybe, someday, when the kids are grown, we will reunite. But until then, I pine for you.
I think of you often and I miss you terribly. My beloved. My sweet. My naptime.
I had no idea how much I would crave sleep when I became a mommy. How much I would just want to take a nap. This is for all of my tired friends. May your days be easy. May your nights be restful. And may you never doubt that somewhere there is another mama who wants a nap as badly as you do.
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