It isn’t even 10 AM, and I have already lost it. I have fussed with my kids and lost my cool about the simplest of things. I am running behind, feel overwhelmed and have misplaced all of my frustrations on those whose hearts trust me. I have not been a safe place for my husband or my children.
I want to make excuses for my actions. I want to tell everyone the million reasons why I deserve to have a morning of fussing at everyone. I would really like to share why I feel the way I do this morning, but none of it matters. Does it? Not one single excuse I could share would justify the attitude of my heart, because I know my actions are just a symptom.
My frustrations and stress show that I have been trying too hard on my own. I have been relying too much on the time that I spent with the Lord yesterday. I am trying to make it by with the nutrients of old bread, and my soul is hungry. I need a freshness of His presence. I need to be reminded of His love. I need Him to overwhelm and fill my hope tank. I need His grace.
…Because I know that we live out of the overflow. As we love and share ourselves with others, it springs up out of the places that are fullest in our hearts. I need to be full of the Lord’s daily bread. I need His Word (the Word that was made flesh and dwelt among us) to come to consume my spirit and replenish my soul.
So, Lord,
I need your grace – grace that is undeserved and freely given. I need your grace to remind me that You desire to take the condemnation that I put on myself and replace it with a reminder of righteousness.
Thank you, Father, that You have told me in Your Word that there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus. I choose to live in that promise of Your Word today and start over. I will gladly exchange the false accusations of “bad mother” “bad wife” “bad friend” and all of the other false labels my enemy has given me for titles that You have given – “forgiven” “redeemed” “blessed” “daughter” “acceptable” “worthy” “lovely” “righteous.”
Help me remember to walk in Your love today, Lord, as I remain in You. Thank You for Your forgiveness, Lord.
It is in the name of Your Son, Jesus, that I come before you today. Amen.
